Raj: I can feel or let me say, I know I am ‘aware’ only when I see things around (visible world). Without them I do not even know whether I am ‘present’ or ‘aware’ (like in deep sleep). So is it correct to say: my Awareness = the things around when I am in my wakeful state?
VF: Raj, you write “without [objects] I do not even know whether I am present or aware. So is it correct to say my awareness equals the things around me when I am in a wakeful state?” Who possesses this awareness referred to? What is this “I” that is or is not in a “wakeful state?”
Please look clearly at your question and see the misunderstanding at its core. Seeing that, the question dissolves. So, let me add a little solvent to see if we can hasten the process!
Is there an ‘I’ who is ‘aware’? That is, on direct investigation, can a separate entity be found who is aware? Or, is there just IT/Awareness in and as which ALL objects – physical, mental, emotional, visible, aural, textured, and odorous – appear? There is never a ‘you’ present whether in deep sleep or waking or any other expression of consciousness. There is no separation between objects seemingly arising ‘within’ Awareness and Awareness. They are one and the same.
Everything is an expression of formlessness. Everything is an expression of IT. There is not a reciprocal relationship between objects and Awareness – for this to be so would require separation between the seeming object and a seeming witness. Even this seeming reciprocity is part of IT. THIS/IT is causeless. IT arises immediately-spontaneously-completely-at once!
Raj: The so called end of seeking is: this body-mind exists with all the sensations sort of smeared somewhere in the visible world without my consciously feeling “I-ness” and it feels like an effort to call the “I-ness” into attention?
VF: It is much simpler. The end of seeking is simply the recognition that the seeker is the sought. The end of seeking comes when the fiction of a separate someone who is looking for a special something is seen for what it is – a phantom, a shadow, a vanishing echo, a dream.
Is there seeking right now? Or, is there just looking at squiggles on the screen and thoughts arising? What is seeking other than more thinking, more story about something to be found? Drop it now! Finish this! What is sought will NEVER be uncovered with more thought – only more deeply buried.
Raj: Even in that non-existent “I-ness”, this body is still separate and distinct sitting in this space (India) and Vince is another body sitting in another space (USA).
VF: Interesting story!
Find something that is not IT. Separate something from IT and send it to me. Is there anything not IT, including the story of a separate body here and a separate body sitting there? Raj, I-IT is looking through your eyes right now and you-IT are looking through mine. Where is the separation? Remember, the role of thought is to divide. The ability to divide has its uses, but a thought cannot know IT even though thought is an expression of IT.
Better yet, drop all of this, including my response, and take a walk. Listen to the birds, to the wind, smell the air, look at the open sky, feel the earth beneath your feet. Leave these considerations alone and rest. IT is Raj-ing, Raj. Just rest as IT (there really is no choice anyway) and then see if there are any questions or if there is just relief!